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Poo, what a tiring week. I slept and woke and slept and woke ... But now it is, sort of great for me cause 1) I can't get my mind off of STUFF that happened yesterday and 2) I'm tired. Like, totally stuffed up. So now, I can sleep well by just falling over something soft.
Everybody studies for the exams. And I thought nobody bothered to. Ha! Am having Chinese and Moral tomorrow. Gah, I had to memorized a lot of stuff from just these two subs. My mind is explodingggg...
So me and Miss Brainy Becca decided to go "Hey, let's stay up late and study together!... Through the phone!"
I don't know whether it's a good idea since Cell phone = Distraction. But eh, I kept texting her about chinses and stuff I don't understand. And she goes "I thought your chinese better than mine" I SHALL FAIL IN CHINESE.Because now I know my mom won't care.
And HAH! I'm so not taking Chinese next year!! I simply cannot afford to take an extra subject and fail in it when I already knew I would... That would be another proof of me being an absolute idiot, yes?
At about 1 AM, I asked "Are you tired already?" She never replied. Probably means she is now alseep on the study table and having saliva coming out from her mouth and made her book all... ugh (HAH! just joking,k?) .Which is a real shock to me, cause I thought she could tahan better than me. Ha, alseep on the table. I've done that a couple of times last week... totally retarded! All I did was just slam my head on the table and twist around till I get comfortable etc.
P.S: I have missed two weeks of Ugly Betty, Desperate Housewives, Navy NCIS, Prison break etc. I so so need freedom and the telly naoo... P.P.S: And I believe I look like shit right now. All panda-eyes etc... Yeeesh.
Oh oh. I found out that my lil brother was much focused than I am tonight. Weirdddd.
P.S: Sadly, we have decided not to perform for the morning sessions this Friday (But I so so want to...). Lots of'em go "Whyyy want to perform in the morning? Nice meh? Scary lehh..." and stuff... But it's fun I tell you!! FUN!! But of course, we are still performing for our dear afternoon sessions. CAN'T WAITTTT!!!
A whole lot of things were going through my mind last night, and they still are now. This has caused me to feel happy+ sad(weirdddd) and lacked of sleep. But I couldn't care much.
Texted Becca about what happened yesterday just now...
And I now roughly know they, have also dated before. Gosh, I'm so slow.
I'm not going to hate on her or anything.Why would I?
I am sad and I wanted to cry. But oddly, I ended up smiling instead. Gah! Am I mental already??
I feel like an absolute FAILURE! AGAIN!!
Maybe I should write a "thrilling" novel about my crappy life?
Yet I'm am not sad. Huh, me being weird and stupid and all... *headdesk*
Fact #1 : Today when school finally ends, my crush walks in front of me and well, yeah, my head starts to think about stupid stuff. Then this girl came and greeted him with like, a hug and they seemed really closeeeeee, and I've talked to that girl before (a long time ago, mind you) My mind goes "OMG WTF? Is he...Are they...NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!" *dies*
I felt really, really sadistic at that moment... And friends didn't know :/ (If SOME of them knew, they would most prolly ignore me for the rest of their life and hate on me.Just maybe... See my point?) Well, obviously 'cause they don't know I had a crush on him! Nobody knows. And now I'm going like, is that a good thing or a bad thing? Cause maybe that's why he never notices since it was just 'not too obvious at all' If that made any sense...
I'm such a FAILURE!!
Well,I'm giving you the chance to guess who the hell he is... I bet you wouldn't know. HAH! But PLEASE! DON'T say anything about this in ze' crapbox... Try commenting, please?
P.S: I had even planned on ... confessing to him this Friday...Yeesh, so much for my resolutions.
Resolution #3 : Be Boyfriended
and my deadline is like... before my birthday? See : aaaaaages. *spazz*
Fact #2:
Twobitches sitting behind me were discussing answers during the exams. And nobody seems to be stopping them or even hearing them except me.... This proves that the teachers are all blind and deaf.
Fact #3:
Am getting really forgetful. This, making me want to just take notes of the stuff I did so I can just blog about my crappy life. Hee! It is like, wherever I go, I'm always trying to remember and go "Oooh, must put that in later"
And I suppose I put things on here because they area the things that are stuck in my head, and the things that are stuck in my head will explode if I don't let them out, so it's sort of necessary to have a place to put them, k? (This doesn't make any sense, yes?)
I mean, blogs are like, internet diaries right? If it was a proper diary, then I would have written things down here maybe. BUT OH LOOK I JUST DID! :D *dumb*
Fact #4:
WTF? I'm going to loose a whole 50 marks just because I didn't do her portfolios etc.!! I STUDIED SO HARD FOR THIS??! NOOOO WAIIII!!!! *dies*
Oh great, green apple. Sour... *sulks* Gosh I'm such a sadarse. *slaps self*
I am too stupid to live,yo.
P.S: It is now 1:52 AM. I have been staying up till this late (or later) to study for stressful exams. See? I am moarrrajin than you think! SUCKER!! :) P.P.S: Ahem, I currently and temporally may not post up 'love' images... Due to the crap that I am still thinking about... Ugh, can't get it out of my headdddd!!! HELLLPPPP!!!
...and Everything should go all "Whoop-de-doo" and "HooHaa!" -Loves, Allyson ♥
Today sucked... But not entirely. Got dragged by my mom to the bookstore today.I was pretty excited at first (since I've been rotting at home for not being able to go out... sucketh!), but she just had to make my mood swing about when she told me what NOT to wear... I was like "Wth, it's not like I have a lot of clothes to choose from!" So bug off and just let me wear whatever I have, woman. (Gosh, I'm such a sadarse...)
And of course, the moment we hit the road, my parents started their argument, again. My brother and I have, well, predicted this would happen since she was ready to explode very soon. So yeah, they started yelling on and on... My brother laughed, though. And then I followed. I had no idea why we were laughing but they didn't stop and neither did we.
I don't whether or not to post this up here but.......I felt like I have to. My mother, declared divorce to my dad... Not really surprising to me, actually. Maybe it's 'cause their "daily argument"? Iono... But I doubt it would be any sooner...Just, maybe, a few more months? Or if I'm lucky enough... Next year.
So yeah, mother dragged me to the racks of revision books before letting me off to the novels. Sad. I felt irritated at that moment cause I couldn't wait to stick my nose to some romance and comedies. I'm in urgent need of happiness and laughter right now (due to the stress of exams...pfft)
I bought Sejarah, Geo, Maths, Science...what else? Oh, English, my favorite (: I didn't really need the english ones actually, since I've got this really good english tuition by this... sorta hot-tempered but great grammar and accent guy. And he kept giving us these deep, deeeeeeppp english excersises... But I don't mind, actually. I like'em ;)
The point. After looking through almost the whole row of crappy revision books, I'm finally free. And so off I go to the novels! *flies* To my surprise, I saw a familiar figure in between the rows. Guess who? A friend I have not seen since, like, what? when I was only 7?? HAH!! Kimberly Quek. (Go ahead and laff all you want at the surname... Like I really care)
So I went all "Omigosh, it's kimmy! Should I talk to her? ...Does she even remember me?? Gawwddd...." I just... pretend I didn't see her, hoped my brother wouldn't come and embarrass me again, and started to go through stacks of novels while I slowly approached her. (She was looking at Mr.Midnight... like wtf?) My eyes caught a lot of awesome book covers or eye-catching names... and the pricing, OH! MY EYES! Why oh why do they have to cost so much? This would make my mother go "No! You can buy five more books for your revision with that price!!" ..... Sad.
Oh yeah, Kimmy. She actually saw me and remembered, and then her brother came too. Christopher, he's still fat... But tall, at least. (: So kimmy came up to me.
Kimmy: Oh.my.gosh. Hiu mun?? *dramatic as always* Moi: *stares*... *gasp* Kimberly??? Kimmy: Omigosh, you remember! Hi!! Moi: *mumbles*I thought you didn't remember.... haha HIIII!!! Christopher: *dumb*
No, we didn't hug or anything. Andandand, IS THAT EPIC OR WHAT?! xD Lucky me, I didn't bump into their parents... They would start asking me daily-life questions that makes me feel... awkward. Like, school,exams, tuition and everything! Ugh.
Woo! Bought this great book called "Big Woo! My not-so-secret-teenage-blog" by Susie Day. I did consider buying the other one called " Who's that girl?" that was pretty interesting... But ehhh, I wanted something to laugh at. So why not? (:
Oh right, you know what's retarded and funny? My brother pretending to be studying(while I was studying... haha, I'm rajin all of a sudden), and then licking a banana like it was an ice cream... HAH!
And then suddenly asking, "Snakes swim?" Like, WTF?
He bought Year7-12 Science, which I now realize it was superbly easy for my standard now. *proudss* I mean, you can just use common sense to get the answers right!! Something like, "Which part of the body do you use to breathe?" Pfft.
Will continue soon. Dad making me sleep... and It's 2:47 now. Hah I'm surprisingly hyper today...
Eeeeekkk!! There's a huge, disgustingbug here and it's flying everywhere around me!! *hides* Get it outttttt!!! >.<
Oh and, it's the 100th post here (: YAY me! x)
Eeeeeeek, go away you bug!!! *runs*
Sunday, May 17, 2009,5/17/2009 12:23:00 AM |
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This, is where You laugh and all...
Yesterday, I've got this seriously sad and great book from Rebekah - "A Child called 'It' " I finished it this morning... Changed a whole lot of me after reading it. Y'know, Dave's Mom reminded me of my dad somehow. Which I think it's bad... real bad. I wouldn't want my dad to become like this crazy, perverted-mind, alcoholic woman. No, absolutely NO. I would seriously run away from home then...
Whenever I read the parts where Dave was either slammed down the kitchen counter, punched, slapped, starved or tortured real bad, I'd have this fear inside of me. Like it actually happened, to me. I almost cried at a few saddening parts. Especially the part where, his Mom had Dave on the gas burner to the kitchen stove and burnt his hands -his Mom said she read an article from the newspaper and wanted to try it out on him.Like, seriously CRAZY okay? and scary.
"You've made my life a living hell!" she sneered. "Now it's time I showed you what hell is like!"
Amazon.com Review David J. Pelzer's mother, Catherine Roerva, was, he writes in this ghastly, fascinating memoir, a devoted den mother to the Cub Scouts in her care, and somewhat nurturant to her children--but not to David, whom she referred to as "an It." This book is a brief, horrifying account of the bizarre tortures she inflicted on him, told from the point of view of the author as a young boy being starved, stabbed, smashed face-first into mirrors, forced to eat the contents of his sibling's diapers and a spoonful of ammonia, and burned over a gas stove by a maniacal, alcoholic mom. Sometimes she claimed he had violated some rule--no walking on the grass at school!--but mostly it was pure sadism. Inexplicably, his father didn't protect him; only an alert schoolteacher saved David. One wants to learn more about his ordeal and its aftermath, and now he's written a sequel, The Lost Boy, detailing his life in the foster-care system. Though it's a grim story, A Child Called "It" is very much in the tradition of Chicken Soup for the Couple's Soul and the many books in that upbeat series, whose author Pelzer thanks for helping get his book going. It's all about weathering adversity to find love, and Pelzer is an expert witness.
I didn't really understand why Roerva only treated Dave like that, and not to her other sons.I'm guessing Dave was the eldest.Terlalu pilih kasih lah! And she kept saying he was a 'loser' and the reason why everything went bad.I doubt that. She was just crazy...
I want my dad to read it (:
So yeah, Mid terms are here next week. Can't believe it. I don't wanna go for exams anymore, they're killing me! Ugh. Why oh why do we have to have exams... They only give us more pressure than ever! And to those who we usually see, if we fail any subject, our reward would be more scoldings and even somethings worse from our parents. Like... " I forbid you to use the computer for the rest of your life!" " No more TV from now on!" " No more going out with your friends!"
Blahblahblah.... Ugh, I just hate those...
So despite the depressing, miserable exams. We have a dance to perform soon!WOOT! I seriously love the dance, AND the song! We're using 'Sexy Back' -still considering whether or not to campur "Circus" in... And we had our special training today. Me and Becca were feeling H-I-G-Hthe whole time (: , thanks to the booming music. I'm starting to think our dance looked more like a 'cheer-leading + hip hop' routine than just normal cheer-leading. But, it's still SMOKIN' HOT!! *dances*
There's a certain person that I feel I'm starting to... hate her. Let's just say... She's a fake. She just looovees to attract attention from everybody around her. Like acting crazy and all and then admitting that she does have mental probs *rolls eyes*. Or maybe changing to song while we were training and then dance some 'retarded traditional dance' all of a sudden and drive everyone crazy and join in -I know, cause I did join in... ahah. Just being retarded, that's all. But she didn't just did it ONCE, she just had to do it A FEW MORE TIMES!
I don't frigging care, okay? So stop blabbin' !
Well, at first we made our dance, then she made hers. WITH our people.I mean... ugh, it sounded like you are snatching our dang clients, okay?? Gosh... And she copied a few of our moves. So we had to change them. I was okay with that actually. She wants that move, she can take it. I have WAY better moves than that.
HMPH! IN YERR FACE! *lala pose*
And I remember that we had to beg her to go ask for those pom-poms from our primary school. She said "Ok ok. I'll go ask" The next day, she goes "Eh, I didn't ask for the pom poms. Cause... I've already borrowed soemthing from the teacher, so if I ask again, I scare she'd get angry with me..." ... blahblahblah.. Well, we begged yo, didn't we? So I said "Good lord...fine, whatever! We don't need the pom poms anymore"
Why do I have to go through so much just to ask for bloody POM POMS! POM POMS, I repeat. I couldn've just asked them myself and not hear your blabbin' just to get attention. I DON'T CARE, ya hear?
gosh... I gotta stop being so mean and all... *slaps self*
I still feel like dancing again... ... Let's dance, Becca!! 8D
Does anyone know how to like, edit your own music... or something? Cause we need one, desperately for the dance. Us PRS are performing at Teacher's Day. Awesome, no? x)
Anyways, if there really is no one that knows how, how about giving the website? I'd love to learn more about it, so I can be really useful next time.
YES, I went to Leehom's concert yesterday and I cannot believe it!! YES, it was awesome, the best! ...well not really, actually... YES, we did scream our lungs out. But no, no sore throat. YES, he was cool! And he looked better real life. Oh and he had shiny hair :) YES, there was a lot of people! But we still had the best seats! YES, we did enjoy ourselves. But the thing is, I've got a feeling Leehom didn't really enjoy himself that night... Maybe he's just tired :/ Poor him... Still, we love him to the extend.
Y'know he had had to be squashed by those crazy maniacs when he got down to touch their hands.Yeah he had bodyguards around him, but still.... Oh, the opening was the best to me. It was like, his own comic book. A super hero named "MUSIC MAN", instead of something corny like the others. Batman, Spiderman, Superman.... lols. Great drawings I must say.
I wish I had a camera when I was there. I would take lots of pictures and record him singing... The one that Jensine recorded was only her screaming... Ahah, funny. When we were listening to what she recorded, her mom, brother and me laughed our arse off. Then she made a way to change the subject. Guess what.
"Hey, somebody farted!" "What? No, no one farted... I don't smell anything!" Then the screaming came back on. L.O.L xD
Oh yeah, did I mention her elder brother looked a lil bit like Jonathan?? Even his voice is almost the same dang it! We got along well, he was nice and hilarious :D
I thought A Mei's concert was better. She looked like she had fun up there. And when everybody was singing along, she kept saying "I love you guys!" And then cried and laughed and then sing while crying... Touching ain't it?
Leehom danced :D He played his guitar most of the time, then the violin and the piano. He was sooo cool when he played his piano. And of course, emotional on the violin. I wanted him to sing "Love, love ,love" It's a really nice and catchy jazz song of his.
Tune up yer speakers (IF you can) :D
I've gotta get a haircut tomorrow morning. It's... ugh :/
Ain't it the cutest? :3
Oh right speaking of cute animals, today when I stopped at the pet shop, I was squealing so much with this cute little boy who's like what, 2 year old? And everybody looked at us. I'm like "Whut, we love cute animals" :D
I just can't seem to focus on anything today. Everything's a mess.
Plus, my leg hurts. I don't wanna budge from this place but sometimes,I just have to. And the stairs ohh.... I'd have to jump up the stairs like an idiot. Serious.
I kept my leg straight the whole time.Cause when I bent it, it hurts. My mom says it's the ... I dunno what it's called. But she said I can't squat down to often or it happens again. And that reminded me about yesterday... I was giving a hand for the SPBTs with the books in that small cozy room, where I'd have to sit, squat, stand up, walk and then squat down to get the books again. Next time, I'd certainly remind myself not to do that,ever again. Y'know what Bee said? 'Next time, get yourself a wheelchair.That would make things much easier, no?' L.O.L I'd love to.
Sad weih. Tomorrow's the day. The day I have been waiting for months.
Tomorrow. is .Leehom's. concert. Dang it. I am suppose to get the tickets from this auntie who works in Galaxy, and had my mom baby-sit her cute lil baby... I was dang crazy about it for the last few months. I screamed, I had sleepless nights for the last whole week, AND I bragged for goodness sake! P.S: I was only joking when I bragged, but I don't know whether the people knew...
And last Tuesday, she came over to see her baby. And she tells me in the face "I don't have any more tickets for you,hon. They're all sold out"
What the eff.... All sold out? All sold out?? I cannot believe it!! I thought she kept two for me before they even started selling the tickets DANG IT!!! UGH!! WHYYYYY????/ *dies*
Tragic...
curses to her, foo...
with loves ♥.
Friday, May 1, 2009,5/01/2009 09:45:00 AM |
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An indecisive and emotional girl who talks at the speed of a train and laughs ALL the time; a fashion zombie who goes around chanting "Shoeesssss..."; a diehard fan of Big Bang ♥ and all things pretty; dreams of taking pictures of the wonderful places around the world; has an absolute sweet tooth and craves for a camera, just so I can keep those precious moments in a picture and never forget. I ain't perfect but I'm unique, so live with it.